I'm sure you'll have some questions as you begin your journey with me. Who am I? What will you find here? I can't fully answer that. Perhaps your journey with me will help me figure all of that out.
As is the tendency, my life has been moving and changing so very quickly. Sometimes I feel like I'm having a hard time keeping up. There are times I feel like I'm drowning, and I'm not sure how I'm going to get through. I am at a point now where I don't know exactly who or what I am, but I know the answer isn't the same as it was even a few years ago.
Flash back to the summer of 2005. I had just finished my first semester of college. I'd graduated high school a couple years before, dabbled in the work force, gone to business school, and had no idea where my life was taking me. At the time, I thought being a lawyer sounded like a pretty good idea, so I began my journey in the Criminal Justice field. During that first semester, the Ocean City, Maryland Police Department sent some officers to my school. They have this program each year where they hire seasonal police officers. I applied, figuring it sounded like a good way to at least get my toe in the door. Maybe it would help me figure out if this was really the path for me.
That summer was the best summer of my life up until that point. One Sgt wasn't fond of me because I became very close to my training officer, and they didn't like each other. The other Sgt, my Lt, and I got along great. One day I actually got a little 'talking to' because I didn't bring a bikini to work with me. I was informed I would be doing plain clothes work as often as they could get me to. They wanted to give me a couple of partners to work with, but in the end, JJ and I were coupled the majority of the time. We looked like a couple, we did a great job together, and the bosses were happy.
Of course, all good things must come to an end. My partner had to go back to school, so I got stuck with somebody new. Chris was a full-time officer that I had paid little attention to. It was no secret that I had just gotten out of a bad relationship and didn't want to date. This guy had been on some of my calls, but I'd paid very little attention to him. Right before we started working together as partners, he came over to watch the movie 'White Chicks' because another officer had borrowed it from me and like it.
Four years later, we still joke about it. My second partner's name was actually Jason, he wasn't full time, he had spent most of the summer trying to get me to notice him, and 'White Chicks' certainly isn't the type of movie he'd typically go out of his way to watch. Less than a year after, we were married in my parents' field. We now have three beautiful children and a house of our own.
My husband still works as a police officer, but no longer for Ocean City. I, on the other hand, quit working to stay at home with our children. I am very thankful that he supports us and also feels that it is important for me to be home rather than working. Somewhere on the way to this point, I lost at least part of who I am. My children and husband are my life. Everything I do is based around making sure they are happy and healthy, and in doing that, I've lost sight of what I want for myself. Yes, if I want to be a police officer in a few years, there will still be criminals, but I'm not even sure I want that anymore.
In this blog, you will be able to join me on my journey to finding myself. You will be taken through my ups and downs, you will be given tips on being frugal, and you may even find some do it yourself projects. Who knows what else will be here. I sure don't.
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